This was indeed terrifying, Evelyn! It felt like a haunted house of the mind, and I wanted little Katyusha to find her way out! What made it possible not to lose all hope were the little flashes of the future you provided here and there. She didn’t escape exactly but she found a way through. Brilliantly done!
Thank you! I am so glad you liked it! Ironically I didn’t think about ‘hope’ at all when I was writing it (which probably shows), but now you mention it the flash-forwards do take care of that. In a spoilery kind of way…
I think... that for this event, you pretty much knocked it out of the park. I was creeping out five lines in. Considering I read horror to fall asleep, that's no mean feat. Succes!
I knew i knew what a skinner box was from my science days... and then when i started reading i remembered what it actually was.
relentless and desolate and harrowingly likely to be or have been a reality in some horrible lab somewhere. which is what makes it so bleak. especially poignant given how much of your related work I have read.
Very very effective writing, as ever! not an "enjoyable story" per se for obvs reasons of grim realism, but hugely appreciated and admited for the craft! 😎
Given that you had been a subscriber, I am now wondering if you ever read anything I posted. If you had, you would know that I myself am a victim-survivor of child abuse with a dissociative condition, which I have written about. You would also know I've written about the real evil of the cabal and what they do. As a result of extensive research. I am fairly certain I know far, far more than you do about the child abuse Network.
Likewise, you may have missed the bit in the intro where I give a link to an article about what Loretta Bender and others did to children on behalf of the CIA, including giving them LSD and subjecting them to electric shocks.
Part of me is thinking perhaps you are just another of these cognitive infiltrators from the 77th Brigade or MI5 or wherever, and your comment was the only thing you lot could come up with to shoot the messenger and try and turn people against me. If so, then you should mark that one down as a spectacular backfire.
If I was to give you the benefit of the doubt, however, I would simply say you totally missed the point when you called this 'entertainment'. You see, if I expose all of this reality in the form of a story, especially if it's shocking, then I will reach a lot more people (which I clearly have already), especially if I provide some links and my companion piece. If I were to just do a tedious 'conspiracy theory' type article then I will not reach anyone, because people have been conditioned to immediately switch off when they encounter something they think is a 'conspiracy theory', or which has been labelled as such.
The cognitive infiltrators have already done a great job with this, because they have clearly infected the conspiracy theory subculture with far-right patriarchal bigotry, which ironically is indeed authoritarian child abuse. So it is no wonder people are turned off by it, and so the real truth is contained/limited and corrupted.
You mentioned 'child pornography' - well, I would say the reason it is not legal to show it to the public is not to protect children, but quite the opposite - if the people saw and knew what really happens in the child abuse Network then there would be a revolution and the abusers/the Establishment simply wouldn't survive.
The best I can do is write about these horrors in the form of stories, and hopefully reach more people so they do, in fact, wake up and then actively do something to stop it.
If you are capable of changing your opinion and admitting when you have made a mistake, and you wish to apologise, then please be assured I will accept your apology gracefully.
Brilliant! So desperate and claustrophobic, so horrifying in its relentless terror and challenge. And yet, I am darkly intrigued by the possible outcomes. Read it with breathless avidity!
Brilliantly dark and sad. Something about the voice here really gives into that disassociating feeling. From second person to third person it flows well and it makes you sink down into despair. This is my first read of yours and it is amazingly well done. So unique.
Thank you! And yes, I always think real life horror is more terrifying than fantastical horror, because the reader/viewer is denied their ability to suspend belief. Like if the monster is in the same location as you, rather than ‘over there’ somewhere, or behind the screen or whatever.
And I think it is important to expose real evil, because then people can stop it.
I’ve been thinking of a follow up story as well recently, for the Eye see you thing…
This is powerful and effective. I've heard enough stories from SRA survivors that I find it more heartbreaking than anything else. I hope this sows seeds that will wake someone up to the reality of this kind of evil.
Thank you for saying that - yes, my underlying intention behind a lot of these aspects of my writing is to raise awareness. The more who are aware, the more chance there is of something actually being done to stop it.
And there is a lot of manufactured resistance to that - only earlier today I was reading yet another article trying to deny the reality of SRA, by suggesting the whole ‘satanic panic’ thing was just a conspiracy theory. Sometimes I think those sorts who cover it up and thus enable it are amongst the worst of all.
Having grown up during the Satanic Panic, I bought into the propaganda that it was all mass hysteria and false memories, but in 2020 something shifted and I began to feel in my spirit that it was real. I was finally fully convinced after reading up on the Finders cult and their ties to the CIA and the McMarten preschool case. I often think about how, in 2019 before all hell broke loose and many started waking up, there were not one, but TWO prominent podcasts that were all about debunking the SP and SRA. There’s no way that was a coincidence.
Indeed. And of course the ‘False Memory Syndrome Foundation’ is the prime example of the perpetrators themselves setting up a professional debunking organisation. Interestingly, many leading members of the FMSF were also directly involved in MKULTRA. So this sort of thing does indeed go to the very top.
Brilliant!
There is too much evil in the world, it is breaking my heart. Excellent storytelling, but all the drinks in the world can't wash away the pain...
This was indeed terrifying, Evelyn! It felt like a haunted house of the mind, and I wanted little Katyusha to find her way out! What made it possible not to lose all hope were the little flashes of the future you provided here and there. She didn’t escape exactly but she found a way through. Brilliantly done!
Thank you! I am so glad you liked it! Ironically I didn’t think about ‘hope’ at all when I was writing it (which probably shows), but now you mention it the flash-forwards do take care of that. In a spoilery kind of way…
Glorious and disturbing. Your prose was perfection. The claustrophobic nightmare you spun will be with me for a while yet!
Thanks! That is perfect praise! I was worried it might be too disturbing…
I think... that for this event, you pretty much knocked it out of the park. I was creeping out five lines in. Considering I read horror to fall asleep, that's no mean feat. Succes!
I knew i knew what a skinner box was from my science days... and then when i started reading i remembered what it actually was.
relentless and desolate and harrowingly likely to be or have been a reality in some horrible lab somewhere. which is what makes it so bleak. especially poignant given how much of your related work I have read.
Very very effective writing, as ever! not an "enjoyable story" per se for obvs reasons of grim realism, but hugely appreciated and admited for the craft! 😎
Quite right about ‘enjoyable’; but I am glad you appreciated the craft!
If you read the companion piece Inside the Skinner Box it will answer your speculation about it being reality or not…
i will get to it… ive just got 23 more stories to read yet! lol
and tofinish part II… just been getting encouragement to make a certain scene even more visceral… ohhh go on then…
This crap actually happens to children. Using it for "entertainment" is pretty gross IMO.
It destroys them and most end up dead.
Next up child pornography and how it's made?
Written in your "brilliant prose"?
This is bald faced clickbait for people with salacious minds.
Get a grip.
Given that you had been a subscriber, I am now wondering if you ever read anything I posted. If you had, you would know that I myself am a victim-survivor of child abuse with a dissociative condition, which I have written about. You would also know I've written about the real evil of the cabal and what they do. As a result of extensive research. I am fairly certain I know far, far more than you do about the child abuse Network.
Likewise, you may have missed the bit in the intro where I give a link to an article about what Loretta Bender and others did to children on behalf of the CIA, including giving them LSD and subjecting them to electric shocks.
Then there's my companion piece, in which I talk about MKULTRA subprojects 136 and 68. If you haven't read that already, here is the link again: https://inadifferentplace.substack.com/p/inside-the-skinner-box?r=2s9hod I suggest you read it.
Part of me is thinking perhaps you are just another of these cognitive infiltrators from the 77th Brigade or MI5 or wherever, and your comment was the only thing you lot could come up with to shoot the messenger and try and turn people against me. If so, then you should mark that one down as a spectacular backfire.
If I was to give you the benefit of the doubt, however, I would simply say you totally missed the point when you called this 'entertainment'. You see, if I expose all of this reality in the form of a story, especially if it's shocking, then I will reach a lot more people (which I clearly have already), especially if I provide some links and my companion piece. If I were to just do a tedious 'conspiracy theory' type article then I will not reach anyone, because people have been conditioned to immediately switch off when they encounter something they think is a 'conspiracy theory', or which has been labelled as such.
The cognitive infiltrators have already done a great job with this, because they have clearly infected the conspiracy theory subculture with far-right patriarchal bigotry, which ironically is indeed authoritarian child abuse. So it is no wonder people are turned off by it, and so the real truth is contained/limited and corrupted.
You mentioned 'child pornography' - well, I would say the reason it is not legal to show it to the public is not to protect children, but quite the opposite - if the people saw and knew what really happens in the child abuse Network then there would be a revolution and the abusers/the Establishment simply wouldn't survive.
The best I can do is write about these horrors in the form of stories, and hopefully reach more people so they do, in fact, wake up and then actively do something to stop it.
If you are capable of changing your opinion and admitting when you have made a mistake, and you wish to apologise, then please be assured I will accept your apology gracefully.
Fascinating.
Thanks for the restack!
You might like the companion piece https://inadifferentplace.substack.com/p/inside-the-skinner-box?r=2s9hod which has some real-life background to it.
And as I hinted in the intro it’s a sort of backstory/flashback to my serial. Which will get very dark…
I shall be getting to your story soon - I’ve been going through them all in order. They really are all brilliant so far…
Brilliant! So desperate and claustrophobic, so horrifying in its relentless terror and challenge. And yet, I am darkly intrigued by the possible outcomes. Read it with breathless avidity!
Thank you Liz! More great words to make my day! Your description is exactly what I was trying to achieve, so I am totally grateful!
The dark intrigue (I like that phrase!) comes out in my serial, for which Skinner Box is a sort of backstory/flashback.
Brilliantly dark and sad. Something about the voice here really gives into that disassociating feeling. From second person to third person it flows well and it makes you sink down into despair. This is my first read of yours and it is amazingly well done. So unique.
Thank you (and for the restack)! That’s amazing praise and every time I get that sort of response it totally lifts my heart up.
Thanks for subbing as well and I hope my other stuff doesn’t disappoint…
Evelyn this was truly one of the strongest horror pieces in the collection because it is based on true events. Very eye opening.
Thank you! And yes, I always think real life horror is more terrifying than fantastical horror, because the reader/viewer is denied their ability to suspend belief. Like if the monster is in the same location as you, rather than ‘over there’ somewhere, or behind the screen or whatever.
And I think it is important to expose real evil, because then people can stop it.
I’ve been thinking of a follow up story as well recently, for the Eye see you thing…
This is powerful and effective. I've heard enough stories from SRA survivors that I find it more heartbreaking than anything else. I hope this sows seeds that will wake someone up to the reality of this kind of evil.
Thank you for saying that - yes, my underlying intention behind a lot of these aspects of my writing is to raise awareness. The more who are aware, the more chance there is of something actually being done to stop it.
And there is a lot of manufactured resistance to that - only earlier today I was reading yet another article trying to deny the reality of SRA, by suggesting the whole ‘satanic panic’ thing was just a conspiracy theory. Sometimes I think those sorts who cover it up and thus enable it are amongst the worst of all.
Having grown up during the Satanic Panic, I bought into the propaganda that it was all mass hysteria and false memories, but in 2020 something shifted and I began to feel in my spirit that it was real. I was finally fully convinced after reading up on the Finders cult and their ties to the CIA and the McMarten preschool case. I often think about how, in 2019 before all hell broke loose and many started waking up, there were not one, but TWO prominent podcasts that were all about debunking the SP and SRA. There’s no way that was a coincidence.
Indeed. And of course the ‘False Memory Syndrome Foundation’ is the prime example of the perpetrators themselves setting up a professional debunking organisation. Interestingly, many leading members of the FMSF were also directly involved in MKULTRA. So this sort of thing does indeed go to the very top.
Gutting. No horror can be darker than the horror of reality for some.